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day Ashlynn Baze kicked her boyfriend out of her high-rise apartment
in Boston, she had just reached the status of "responsible
adult." Meaning she had a good job, a nice place to live,
and was now an expert on the Boston subway's red lines, green
lines, and the lines she didn't want to be on when taking the
T.
Yes, she had finally arrived to that "responsible adult"
status, or so she'd thought. But she'd quickly learned that
the place she'd arrived at still wasn't the place she wanted
to be. It stung, she reflected as she drove through the northern
part of Massachusetts in her new SUV—no more T stops where
she was going—with the windows down and her cat howling
in the backseat. Shelby was not used to long car rides.
There had been so much promise when Ashlynn's boyfriend, Jack,
had moved in a few months before, an event that really put the
clincher on the whole grownup idea. How much more grownup could
you get? Ashlynn thought with glee the day Jack transferred
the last of his meager belongings to her place. She was finally
living with a man after so many stops, starts and broken hearts.
Even though she was barely thirty there had been quite a few,
something she didn't like to remind herself of very much.
Ashlynn was styling, and let everyone know it. She spent way
too much time at the Copley Place Mall buying Coach purses and
expensive shoes from Saks to wear when on dates with Jack, who
was very well known and on his way to becoming an actor—which
was the way he'd introduced himself to her at the party she'd
attended with a co-worker a few months before. Ashlynn had thought
it was very cool to hook up with an artist.
She did the power lunch thing and the after-work-bar-haunt thing.
She got up early, went to bed late, and drank lattes. Ashlynn
Baze had made it to where she'd always wanted to be.
Oh, and she let Jack take advantage of her, she reminded herself.
She'd trusted this guy, welcomed him into her home, and got
to listen to countless lectures from her mother and two sisters
for her efforts. Because when Ashlynn faced reality, Jack was
not on his way to becoming an actor. Jack was an artsy-fartsy
drama student that loved to play the suffering artist part.
Although he wasn't suffering all that much, living in her Back
Bay apartment for almost free, enjoying the view, and fooling
around with his boyfriend when she wasn't around. Until the
day Ashlynn walked in on them.
Granted, I should have been suspicious when he dyed his brownish-blond
hair a strange shade of bleach blond, gooping more product in
it then I put in mine, and started wearing clothes with better
brand names than most of the executives I worked with. Not that
straight men can't wear nice clothes, but still. There should
have been a hint.
Then she came home from work early with the flu one day and
found Jack's boyfriend, some Goth-looking guy, lounging naked
on her bed while her no-good bi-sexual boyfriend showered and
primped and did whatever men do in this situation.
So, after a scene where Ashlynn freaked out, Goth boy laughed
the whole time he got dressed, and Jack offered up lame excuses
about auditioning for a part, she kicked the jerk out. She thought
it would feel worse than it did, but in actuality she found
herself quite relieved. They hadn't been that compatible, sexually
or otherwise (obviously), she reflected, and he could be downright
obnoxious to live with. Plus, the jerk had accidentally let
Shelby out when he was greeting his little friend, and Ashlynn
had to search the halls until she found her wandering on the
eighth floor, meowing pitifully at someone else's door, probably
conveying the fact that her mom was still not grown up enough
to start choosing the right guys.
Ashlynn got rid of Jack, but that didn't seem to be enough.
When she sat back and took a good, long look at this grownup
life she'd been hell bent on creating, she realized she was
fooling herself. She didn't care about corporate worlds, after
work cocktails, and whiny pencil pushing men. She didn't want
to have power lunches and ride the T next to some smelly person
who leered at her the whole way. And she especially did not
want to keep meeting the same kinds of men, bisexual artist
freaks like Jack or even the lame business types.
So in the most impetuous moment in her responsible adult life,
Ashlynn broke her lease, quit her job, packed up her cat and
her pitiful amount of stuff (because a Back Bay apartment really
is too expensive for furniture) and her Coach bags and drove
to a small town in New Hampshire to stay with Courtney, who
she'd been able to count on since kindergarten. Courtney, who
had a huge apartment, half a house actually, for half the price
Ashlynn had been paying and a love of cats, and the same lousy
luck with men. She lived far enough into New Hampshire that
it was the country, but not far enough that Ashlynn felt she
would have to worry about losing her teeth and wearing flannel
shirts. And, best of all, she said there was no shortage of
men in the area. Which was a good thing, Ashlynn thought against
her better judgment, because she really needed to get down to
the business of real life dating. After all, she was almost
30. She couldn't screw around with starving artist types forever,
right? Especially those that were gay and conveniently forgot
to tell her.
But along with all Courtney's other wonderful qualities, the
best part about her is her persistence. When she puts her mind
to something, it gets done. So when Ashlynn and Shelby finally
pulled up in her driveway with their lives packed in a small
SUV, she was waiting. "We've gotta get started," she
said. "Have I got a guy in mind for you."
Ashlynn dragged boxes across Courtney's porch. Paint flaked
off the old boards of the floor, disrupted by the activity.
Ashlynn barely noticed. Her cell phone rang, startling her out
of the peaceful zone she'd been operating in, not thinking or
worrying, just concentrating on manual labor.
Ashlynn pulled her phone out of the back pocket of her jeans.
Her sister Lia's name was flashing on the screen. Grinning,
she flipped the phone open. "Wait," Lia said when
Ashlynn answered. There was a click, then Lia came back on the
line. "You there?" "I'm here," Ashlynn answered.
"Me too," replied another voice. Despite her best
efforts not to, Ashlynn winced. Lia had used her three-way calling
feature to dial their older sister, Dylan. Ashlynn loved her
sister, but sometimes she just wasn't in the mood for her. Today
was one of those times.
"Back already?" Dylan inquired, a laugh hiding beneath
her neutral tone.
"Couldn't wait to be near you guys again," Ashlynn
answered through somewhat gritted teeth.
Lia
sighed. "Don't start already," she warned. "We're
getting dressed up tonight and we're all going out. The four
of us. Tell Courtney," she instructed Ashlynn. "Drinks,
dinner, whatever. We'll see you at seven."
"Later," Dylan said, and hung up.
"Yeah," Ashlynn muttered. "Later."
With a lot of sweet talking and a little poor-me-this-is-the-only-thing-that-will-cheer-me-up
wrangling, Ashlynn cajoled Courtney into abandoning the shopping
trip for a new outfit for the evening out and instead got her
into the bookstore.
"You're the only girl I know that needs a new book for
a night out scoping guys instead of some sexy new top,"
Courtney grumbled as they walked into Barnes and Noble. "I
need the book for later," Ashlynn said. "When I come
home alone while you're all out with your new men. Except Dylan,
because she's married."
Courtney didn't even dignify her with an answer. "I'll
be over at the horror section."
Ashlynn waved her off and headed to the new hardcover section.
She was perusing the choices in her favorite genre, chick lit,
when it happened. Or rather, he happened.
Standing right at the edge of her aisle in the travel section,
flipping through a book about Italy.
Her first thought was, thank God he's not in the self-help section.
Then she focused in on the details.
Blond hair, close-cropped but still sexy, accented a strong
face with sharp cheekbones and a small chin dent. Chin dents
were, without a doubt, Ashlynn's favorite features on a man.
But his eyes—a deep, arctic blue shot through with purple
and gray. A light, barely-there smattering of freckles on a
face that practically shouted devilish. The shirt he wore, a
simple long-sleeved black top, clung to a fascinating assortment
of muscles, rippling along his arms, chest, and back. And when
he happened to look up and smile, probably because he could
feel my stalkerish gaze on him, I just melted.
And then he put the book down and walked away just as Courtney
came over. "Cool. A new vampire book," she announced,
waving it at me. When I didn't answer, she reached out, shook
my shoulder. "What's with you?"
"Nothing," I said, staring at the door my Greek god
had just vanished through. The irrational half of my brain encouraged
me to run through the parking lot looking, but I clamped down
on it. I forced myself to look at her, smile. "I'm fine."
Courtney shook her head. "You got weird in Boston. Let's
go, we gotta get dressed."
Ashlynn's Journal
March 5, 2006
I used
to think I knew what I wanted out of a guy. Obviously he had
to be hot, and I preferred the artistic type. I guess if I were
to be psychoanalyzed, they would say I chose those types to
counterbalance my anal-retentive, detail-oriented self. Who
knows how the mind works, but that was what I wanted. Rich was
also a bonus, but artistic and rich did not usually go hand
in hand. It was cool to settle for artistic, so that's what
I did. And there was a long line of them, way before Jack. Jack
just happened to be
the one that wormed his way into my life way deeper than any
other guy had. And Jack was definitely not what I wanted.
So, what did I want? How did I know?
I still don't really have a clue.
But I think I found him today, without even meaning to. THE
him. The man of my dreams. Blond, hot, sexy, no wedding ring
that I could see. He just looked so different, so kind and sweet
and funny. He looked like a man that actually cared about other
people as much as he cared about himself. And how I knew this
by seeing him flip through a book on walking tours of Italy,
I have no idea. It was just a gut feeling. Or maybe I was overreacting
because of everything that had happened. Only one way to find
out, I guess. Meet and see for myself.
Problem is, how will I ever find him again? There has to be
a way. A PI, a tracking device. Security cameras.
Looks like I found my first project in New Hampshire.
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